The Art Of Masochism™

time?

2008-06-02T04:00:00.002+08:00

what is time? time can never be explained through science or logical explanations but religions will aways find a way, their bullshit stories does entertain but i won't be fooled anyways back to what i wanna say

it's been freaking long since my last update and it seems i can't be bothered, well yeah i don't have the time due to work and there's seriously nothing i could blog about..i've changed my email to gorge.666@hotmail.com if you wanna add just go ahead...i leave this blog to rot till i'm free again...\m/ metal FTW!

my new pet

2008-02-23T18:30:00.001+08:00

my new hamster's name is joanne named after the girl i used to liked i'll post her pics in the possible future

she's so cute like her

Heaven Shall Burn - Endzeit

2008-02-22T03:42:00.001+08:00

watch...

valentine's day

2008-02-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

i've been single and always wanted how it feels like to celebrate this day with your loved one and sadly i never get to experience it, what i did today was simply sleeping the whole afternoon and woke up at 11pm, 20 years old...time is ticking

CNY Results

2008-02-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

red packets - 50 over still got some haven't take
oranges - 0
cans of beer - surprisingly 8 cans didn't even get drunk
cans of expired 2006 stout - 5, my grandfather is crazy
smokes smoked - 4 packs
smokes bought in malaysia - 2 packs
injuries - burnt my hand lighting a fire cracker in malaysia
blackjack - lost of S$7 and RM$16
mahjong - S$30 loss
angry people - i don't know

overall - before the cny period i was so fucking sick but did i even cared?

this is hot! Hayden Panettiere!

2008-01-29T23:16:00.001+08:00

Wish i was patrick! look at his face!

she looks so freaking stunning and natural!

i hope she doesn't turn into someone like lindsay lohan or paris hilton

and yes she loves animals!

Warhammer 40k

2008-01-26T06:22:00.000+08:00

i'm hooked with warhammer 40k and not just the game but the original tabletop model games, but it's damn expensive to have it as a hobby, when i get a stable job i'm going to get me a chaos army for keeps and i would also want to customize them like my own calling them the the "cult of the pain bearers" but until then it will only be my current goal, life is starting to lose it's meaning, but then again i'm young lots of time for me heh. Till i really hit rock bottom i might consider suicide to be at the back of my head, i'll die for atheism just like the monks in thailand and jesus for christians, I'LL DIE FOR FREEDOM! FOR THE SAKE OF NON-BELIEVERS! FUCK RELIGIONS!, maybe that was too extreme i guess, but hey whatever goes to get the message across right?

chinese new year's round the corner and i'm gonna be wearing some fucking purple tight long sleeve shirt with 2 pockets which my mum bought me, why the fuck she got me purple when white or black suits me? damn i'm gonna look gay in it, UNLESS! i buy a white one, with new element skater shoes, dye my hair red for the occasion, i'll see how......don't wanna make my mum sad cause she actually bought me something to bring the gentle side of me out since i'm always wearing dark colors, and now it sounds like i'm loving my mum...fuck it's gay i'll do it this once only

Suicide Silence - The Price Of Beauty

2008-01-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

not for the faint hearted

hair

2008-01-12T08:54:00.001+08:00

they say i looked good in short hair, ok so be it i even re bonded my front and now it's like a modified devilock, new year new look i see if i can take this to the next level, and by the way i'll be inactive for awhile kinda lazy to blog..

Job For A Cowboy - Embedded

2007-11-16T19:22:00.001+08:00

one of my fave videos of the year

believe it or not...i can sing the whole song, i mean GROWL AND SCREAM

glen benton

2007-11-09T12:34:00.000+08:00

GORGE:"i'll kill emos to prove i'm not fucking emo, when i'm serious i will do it"

the jack nicholson of the metal industry, looks like him right?

future

2007-10-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

in a week's time my 7-11 eleven outlet will be handed back to corporate and i would be jobless, luckily i've got another job i hope i can really get and that is to work at my mother's friend's pub, i know nightlife work is bad but who would want to employ someone like me except pubs or ktvs? besides i'm a night-owl, i would then work hard and pay off my aunt for the computer and then chiong for motor pract and lastly get my dream sp i would then complete my life....i don't know if i'm even high now

why me of all people?

2007-10-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

i have no fucking idea why i'm always mistaken for malay..are people nowadays fucking stupid? look at me...just because i pierce my ear and dyed my LONG hair, people stereotype me as malay? fucking retards are making malays look cool, goes to show how chinese looks are way too common, fucking chinese posers acting all jap and koreans while malays go for the current trend's emo look........I STICK WITH WHAT I LIKE, TRADITIONAL METALHEAD! and seriously, we youngsters are crazy...i shouldn't care what people think of me, but since young i had that ang moh look and now it's pretty much common everywhere...goes to show the world has changed, we care alot about our looks...including me, my face is full of scars, i can say battle scars, my hands ain't that smooth either, I DON'T CUT MYSELF, i burn myself instead, that way i can fucking not be associated with emo faggots, i'm a masochist not emo, emos are people we break down easily emotionally and they cry fucking alot, while i go on a aggressive rage on everything, they seek pain for escape, i seek pain for pleasure....overall i'm just a typical angst-ridden aggressive motherfucking anti-religion emo hater...metalheads for the win!

yeap you guessed it...i'm pretty high on whisky

i think...

2007-10-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

i tore my ear when i jumped from 10mm to 18mm for my earlobe, from the looks of it it ain't that serious and tearing is pretty common, only that it's gonna take a fucking long time for it to heal compared to the small ones i did, maybe 1-3 months, and what's more i got to clean it everyday when i take a shower, which i always do.....maybe i should have used some lubricant, because i wanted to feel the pain i decided to push it in all the way till i heard a snap kinda sound i think... oh well i'll just wait for it to heal and see what the teachers in school are gonna complain about

Six Feet Under - Thou Shalt Kill

2007-09-23T09:15:00.000+08:00

I open your body to expose your guts
the liver removed the spleen it bursts
A knife in the chest,cutting through innards

I continue to invade your body
piece by piece,hole by hole
too much pain for flesh to bear
As I torture

Thrown into the grave
The body decays
The soul I have raped

I return to kill another
Victims Unknown
Soon to be butchered slowly
Bodies hanging from hooks

They decay and I fuck them as maggots feed
The corpse has rotted quickly,missing extremities
Toes and fingers turning black

Nose and ears hacked off

As gangrene sets in
I return to kill again
Victims unknown
Soon to be butchered slowly

Too much blood leaking from you
Weakening, draining fluid, and pus
Turning skin Rigor Mortis sets in
The body bleeds,the heart beat fades

Thrown into the grave
The body decays
The soul I have raped

A knife in the chest cutting through innards
Tearing apart,you're screaming
I continue to invade your body
Piece by Piece,Hole by Hole
Too much pain for flesh to bear
As I Torture
YOU!!

i don't know but i find this lyrics hilarious, if you have a great imaginative mind like me, it's considered entertainment...bah!

As I Lay Dying - Ocean Between Us

2007-09-20T05:54:00.000+08:00

How many years have we waited
for a ship that never set sail?
And how many days have we wasted
chasing a love that was not our own?
I sat ashore and watched
as one hopeless wave crashed upon another
while my thoughts ran to the hills
my heart never reached the sea
with only delusions of an endless journey
I am left with an ocean between you and me

Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
of someone else’s dream

The gate to my heart has been weld shut
with the splendor of my aspirations closed in
how many years have we waited
for a ship that never set sail?
And how many days have we wasted
chasing a love that was not our own?

Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
of someone else’s dream

how christian is this song? damn bloody christian, but i still listen to them cause i love their music, now back for some death metal

Christians are fucking

2007-08-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

WEAK!. Why? let's give an example where you put a religious fucker in a life and death situation, what do you think he would do? PLEAD FOR GOD! PRAY FOR HELP! CRY FOR GOD!, oh and there are 2 outcomes to this, 1. he is saved therefore thinks "GOD" actually helped him, well this is bullshit! anybody heard of luck? or coincidence? basically GOD doesn't want you to believe in that shit, right? 2. he won't be saved therefore GOD IS FAKE! but then again, religious fuckers would imply that the poor bugger is in heaven cause "GOD" wants him....yet again, BULL-FUCKING SHIT!....

as for me? what do i believe? nothing but myself, i do what i want, i get what i what, work hard and you will be successful, do the opposite you're fucked, i don't need religion to teach me this kind of shit and morals, religion is for the weak-willed and it's a crutch for them, but i guess some really had no choice i mean baptized as a baby, parents are damn religious then i pity those fools....and as a child you have to be brainwashed i mean if you remembered how you actually really believe in fairy tales as a kid actually applies in this situation, cause when you were taught young you start to actually believe....a movie "Jesus Camp" proves this....

more rants, i've noticed christians are so damn close-minded and stubborn, if science actually proved something they rather not believe, not only that, if you wanna know more about a freaking old book written by some childish kid that forbids you to do 10 things, shouldn't you be doing some research and see if "GOD" actually had human traits....he's an angry, violent, jealous, unforgiving mother fucker...and they say "GOD" IS PERFECT! i say fuck that!.....

as for me now...i'll always be a atheist...meaning i don't believe in shit like demons or angels, heaven or hell, GOD OR ANY SUPREME BEING, just to clarify to those people out there who thinks i'm fucking satanic....but then again, acting all satanic is fun and cool ain't it? hahaha fucking christians can't tell it's fake, all due seriousness, I'M NOT SATANIC, IT'S JUST ENTERTAINMENT AND SOMETHING FUN THING TO DO BECAUSE OF IT'S SHOCK FACTOR, YOU BLOODY FUCKING CUNT FUCKTARDS

oh and lastly, i've finally earn my first 520 bucks( the last pay was lesser 200 bucks), hard work really pays off i don't need religion to help me, i found that job, had that experience, made alot of friends and now i'm all happy, except that christians still think they are the majority of religions that are big and powerful...that really boils me but i'll let them go cause in the future it's them who will kill each other, i'll be watching the bloodbath and laughing

George Carlin - fucking awesome atheist, a comedian too... nobody knows him at all but then again what can i do? if you're really interested in knowing the truth about religion, read more on his books or just research on atheist topics...please for you christians... open your eyes for once, i'm trying to help you not waste money and your life doing stupid things...AT LEAST READ THOSE RESEARCHES AND DECIDE YOURSELF NOBODY'S FORCING YOU! and don't be afraid...try and find proof against those articles, if you do find it, who knows you might actually strengthen your relationship with your god, that is if you can find, HAHAHAHA

i'm not drunk, i'm just high

look here....

2007-08-10T04:50:00.000+08:00

WORK WORK WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES GORGE A DULL BOY!

i'll be a geylang bahru if you wanna find me, it's walking distance from the red light district, or just call me for christ's sake

hmmm...

2007-07-05T02:15:00.000+08:00

it looks like i changed my template but for reason it's still the same....hmm weird huh? haha wait for a big pic coming to you soon...when i'm free i'm gonna photoshop a cool pic up...chiodos

my current life....

2007-05-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

is pretty fucked up right now....i don't find anything interesting now, i'm getting bored real easily and i've never played any game at home for like what? 1-2 months? really unlike me huh?
how i wish those old days can be back before it's too late, i wanna drink with my friends again, get wasted together, BUT NOW? they drink soooo little....fucking hell wanna high must high together, not just me alone...fuck man, they buy beer for what fuck? and then have to go for useless counseling this coming tuesday, what? anger management? THAT'S JUST ME! every time i'm picked for counseling, what the fuck is wrong with this world? fine...i'll humor them, i'll go for it...maybe they can talk me out of doing it

and now the whole class thinks i'm fucking psycho, shit!... SHIT MAN! just alittle more to go before the big bang! wahahaha! funeral for a friend...literally, pour some beer on my coffin!, metal music blasting!........nah just kidding! but then again...it's so damn interesting to see what happens after i died...if only i have that thinking i could write a script for a movie eh?

the sound....

2007-05-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

of death turns me on.... i'm not crazy man...it's like WTF?

i'll think of something stupid to write in the future, i'm so fucking high now

why i smoke....

2007-04-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

i'll reveal why i really wanted to smoke, it's not because it's cool, not because of pressure, it does feel good, not because i wanna be bad....

the truth is : i'm trying to get that voice like randy blythe from LOG, says he smokes alot to achieve that cookie-monster growls of his...he ain't the only scream/chugger/growler/singer to claim smoking helped them...think George "Corpsegrinder" Fisher from Cannibal Corpse,ville valo from HIM, Lauri Ylönen from The Rasmus are the few of them, mostly metal bands have smoking vocalists

my next backup is to do vocals, hardcore style

right i'm *gone*

as usual...

2007-04-08T07:13:00.000+08:00

another case of in-fucking-somnia, it's been like 3-4 days without cough syrup and i can't get a proper sleep without a few push-ups.

i regret that i didn't commit a crime, what are the odds? a bad person has to have a rep on his head right? damn...now it's too late, i can't steal cause i swore never to do it again since secondary after getting caught, neither can i rape i mean WHY WOULD I RAPE? i think it's the most immoral thing to do to a girl and i'll never disrespect a girl even if my life depends on it, the only thing left is to kill and i've had a few people in mind, but then again...i can't bear to end their lives without torturing them, sorry take that back, there's no point in killing them when their life's are worthy of dogs, i love dogs they 're cute, bah..forget about the bad things, i'll never be a bad person at least FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE! and of course singapore condemn such people so far as to give a life for life sentence...

i'm really bored, i've told the girl i like about my feelings and she got shocked till it's so awkward to chat with her...i've completely gave up and i believe she deserves better than someone like me, who does bad things for the sake of being bad...but seriously i don't recall doing anything bad the last time since i broke someone's ..... all i can do now is to rot at home blasting metal of course and wait for school to start, or i can go back to work and socialize more while earning some extra bucks to spend on clothes or arcade i think i might be a workaholic(NOT!) , too bad i ain't got the chance to spend on a girl, and no! i don't like clubbing cause the one reason is no moshing and there's no metal,i always get myself drunk 1 hour after reaching there cause i need that high, it's not that i am a poor drinker but i'm more into getting the high, when you're high you can just about do anything so far to even chat up on some random girls, ahhh the effects of alcohol is wonderful...i might buy a 6 pack later and drink while watching soccer and doing push-ups...maybe snack on a few babies...but then clubbing sucks when you're bored there...although there's booze

i'm just shooting random stuff in this post as always cause i basically have nothing that is logical to share, oh if only i was still in church, i'll happily quote whatever bible verses like my other friend did, at least he got something to write ain't it? but that only goes to show how far he was brainwashed, to the fact that even every single thing and decision has to go through GOD first, i mean what if his wife asked him for a baby? he goes down on his knees and prays and asks god for permission and even ask advice on how to actually go through the process, his wife might be freaked out(or maybe she might pray with him) and the sexual tension is gone! another senseless bullshit by me again...i don't hate christians....seriously

man i don't know what to do, i just wanna lay back and sip on some cold beer while headbanging to metal with my head bangers(i don't have any friends close to me who are into metal as much as i do, i can only find them online somewhere across the globe), a few smokes and NO COUGH SYRUP!...

man it's days like this when i just write random shit for the sake of getting to read and laugh about it in the future...think about the last few years...all the crap i wrote was hilarious, doesn't even makes sense...i'm comical as usual

what to write? or type in this case

2007-04-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

although i've been trying to quit cough syrup, i was unable to sleep without it, well tough shit for me, pray that i don't die my friends...PRAY! if it actually does work

i have a fetish for hoodies, that's sweat jacket with something to cover your head, i would even wear it on a hot day cause i don't give a fuck, i love to wear it and there's nothing left to say but "i'll fuck my hoody if it's a she"....

and now i'm basically screwed up, i don't even know what to do when school starts, i mean shit! if i were to lose my long hair, it's the same as losing my manhood, but if there's no choice i'll snip it off...i've already planned a proper hairstyle or maybe just a short trimming

oh yes screw emo fashion...now i don't even dare to wear black clothes because people outside might think i'm emo and all that (not that i cared what others think, but i hate people staring at me like back then when i had brown hair) because of long hair and dark clothings...i mean FUCK! i've always wear dark clothings even before emo became popular, fuck paul twohill fucking lame surname of a surname, what am i to wear now? black metal t-shirts everytime i go out? oh wait..even emos wear that!

nah i'll stick to long sleeves...looks smart eh?

i'm proud of LP they've changed and as a fan i would support their new sound...in fact it's still bloody good! but then again...i'm still into metal/core whatever underground heavy music that mainstream idiots don't listen to cause they don't appreciate music and only cared about lyrics or whatever metal=devil theory....right, about that, emo's like to make stupid poetry so if you wondered if the band you're listening is emo? read their lyrics and think about it...but don't worry about me, metal is all evil, and nobody will ever think of calling me emo and yes no need to remind me, i have a hatred for emo making me look bad

metal for life!

oh and one last thing, goth girls are hot, better yet if they're into metal
and yes i will still wear dark clothes

where's the smile?

2007-03-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

check out the pics over the years...no smiles

6 Years Old

12 Years Old

16 Years Old

18 Years Old

24 Years Old

ok maybe not 24 cause that's my father, cool huh?
perfect for funeral photo

my dream funeral

2007-03-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

i'm planning my funeral for the future in case i happen to die and hopefully my friends will be able to do what i want in this very post...

when i die,i have to be buried by my closest friends as well as enermies, i want metal music to be blasted while i'm buried

songlist(warning very long)

1.as i lay dying - confined
2.demon hunter - undying
3.killswitch engage - my curse
4.avenged sevenfold - the wicked end
5.chromium - set me free
6.bloodjinn - break the silence
7.deicide - never to be seen again
8.dir en grey - agitated screams of maggots
9.slayer - eyes of the insane
10.vanna - magnetic knifes
11.the agony scene - we bury our dead at dawn
12.as blood runs black - Hester Prynne
13.atreyu - shameful
14.august burns red - the seventh trumpet
15.becoming the archetype - into oblivion
16.between the buried and me - The Day I Tried To Live
17.the black dahlia murder - I'm Charming
18.bleeding through - dearly demented
19.bloodsimple - What If I Lose It
20.breaking benjamin - So Cold
21. bring me the horizon - Pray For Plagues
22.bullet for my valentine - Hand Of Blood
23.bury your dead - House of Straw
24.caliban - Nothing Is Forever
25.cannibal corpse - Murder Worship or make them suffer
26.catherine - is it tomorrow yet?
27.chevelle - The Clincher
28.coheed and cambria - Ten Speed (Of God's Blood & Burial)
29.darkest hour - With A Thousand Words To Say But One
30.deathstars - Blitzkrieg
31.destroy the runner - Pallbearer
32.devil wears prada - Dogs Can Grow Beards All Over
33.devildriver - Grinfucked
34.dimmu borgir - Progenies Of The Great Apocalypse
35.disturbed - Prayer
36.dragonforce - Through the Fire and Flames
37.eighteen visions - Tonightless
38.First blood - First Blood
39.funeral for a friend - History
40.god forbid - the end of the world
41.ghost machine - Siesta Loca
42.the handshake murders - Painted Contortionist
43.haste the day - When Everything Falls
44.hatebreed - Defeatist
45.heaven shall burn - Counterweight or mybestfriend.com
46.i killed the prom queen - Sharks In Your Mouth or 666
47.ill nino - This Is War
48.in flames - Dead End
49.iron maiden - The Reincarnation Of Benjamin Breeg or Rainmaker
50.it dies today - A Constant Reminder
51.lamb of god - Walk With Me In Hell or laid to rest
52.lacuna coil - Our Truth
53.linkin park - From the Inside
54.lostprophets - To Hell We Ride or Make a move or Everybody's Screaming!!!
55.marilynn manson - This Is The New Shit(the ultimate satanic bullshit)
56.mastodon - Blood And Thunder
57.metallica - Enter Sandman or the call of ktutu
58.moonspell - Finisterra or Luna
59.mudvayne - Forget To Remember
60.my chemical romance - helena or ghost of you, other than that fuck off
61.nine inch nails - The Hand That Feeds
62.norma jean - Liarsenic (Creating A Universe Of Discourse)
63.opeth - The Grand Conjuration
64.papa roach - Sometimes, Getting away with murder or between angels and insects
65.parkway drive - Pandora
66.a perfect circle - Passive or Counting Bodies Like Sheep To
67.powerman 5000 - Bombshell
68.puddle of mudd - Blurry
69.rammstein - Sonne
70.red - Breathe Into Me
71.roadrunner united - the end
72.satyricon - K.I.N.G. or the pentagram burns
73.shadows fall - In Effigy
74.the showdown - laid to rest
75.slipknot - wait and bleed or skin ticket or duality
76.static-x - the only or so
77.stone sour - 30/30-150
78.story of the year - anthem of our dying days or until the day i die
79.sum 41 - The Hell Song
80.system of a down - Chop Suey! or question! or b.y.o.b
81.taproot - Mine or Calling
82.three days grace - pain or i hate everything about you
83.thrice - image of the invisible or stare at the sun
84.throwdown - burn
85.tool - vicarious
86.trivium - entrance of the conflagration or contempt breeds contamination
87.underoath - watch me die or when the sun sleeps or Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape or It's Dangerous Business Just Walking Out Your Front Door or In Regards To Myself or Writing On The Walls or Casting Such A Thin Shadow
88.unearth - This Glorious Nightmare or giles
89.unrest - go to hell
90.velvet revolver - slither
91.zao - Psalm Of The City Of The Dead or Kingdom Of Thieves or My Love, My Love (We've Come Back From The Dead)
92.escape the fate - There's No Sympathy For The Dead or Dragging Dead Bodies In Blue Bags Up Really Long Hills

that's all to the list and i bet you guys can't be bothered to read through this because it's long, and yes you guys don't bother to visit my blog either soooo what the hell, anyways when i die you'll be looking for this very sentence here cause i did this on purpose, not that anybody cares if i die, i'm just getting ready and want it to be prepared, although my motive is TO HAVE EVERYONE'S EARS AND EYES BLEED from the metal music...scared? haha thought so fuckers, nah just want to spread the love of metal...metal doesn't kill, i didn't kill anybody and because of metal my anger is much better....it's like a therapy,listening to metal releases anger in the safest way compared to me hurting myself

back to the planning, i want everybody who's attending my funeral to be laughing and not crying, i don't care if you're sad or what shit but deep down your heart you know one less fucker all the better for the world...i want my enemies to dump my body into the hole before all of you start to bury me and make sure i'm buried properly, you don't want me to come back and kill you all do you? as for the funeral session, i don't want no shitty religious ceremony, no Buddhist chants or what fuck under my block, neither do i want a christian funeral, screw the prayers and shit....just dump my body into a hole and bury simple as that and it's cheap too...I WANT YOU GUYS TO PERSUADE MY PARENTS TO READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND...ok then...till the time i die...
one last thing...don't fucking burn offerings to me, i don't need those shit when i'm in hell suffering, getting raped by satan

symptoms of mania

2007-02-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Although "severely elevated mood" sounds somewhat desirable and enjoyable, the experience of mania is often quite unpleasant and sometimes disturbing if not frightening for the person involved and may lead to impulsive behavior that may later be regretted. It can also often be complicated by the sufferer's lack of judgment and insight regarding periods of exacerbation of symptoms. Manic patients are frequently grandiose, irritable, belligerent, and frequently deny anything is wrong with them. Because mania frequently encourages high energy and decreased perception of need or ability to sleep, within a few days of a manic cycle, sleep-deprived psychosis may appear, further complicating the ability to think clearly. Racing thoughts and misperceptions lead to frustration and decreased ability to communicate with others.

In addition to decreased need for sleep, other manic symptoms include irritability, anger or rage, delusions, hypersensitivity, hypersexuality, hyper-religiosity, hyperactivity, racing thoughts, talkativeness or rapid speech, and grandiose ideas and plans. In manic and less severe, hypomanic cases, the afflicted person may engage in out of character behaviour such as questionable business transactions, wasteful expenditures of money, risky sexual activity or highly vocal arguments uncharacteristic of previous behaviors. These behaviors increase stress in personal relationships, problems at work and increases the risk of altercations with law enforcement as well as being at high risk of impulsively taking part in activities potentially harmful to self and others.

A mnemonic used to remember the symptoms of mania is DIGFAST: [1]

* D = Distractibility
* I = Indiscretion (excessive pleasure activities) or Insomnia
* G = Grandiosity
* F = Flight of ideas
* A = Activity increased
* S = Sleep deficit
* T = Talkativeness (pressure speech) or Thoughtlessness (if insomnia above)

am i a maniac? fuck i think maybe i should go see a psychiatrist

to prove i ain't fucking emo, i don't cut myself

2007-02-14T05:51:00.001+08:00

A common form of self-injury involves making shallow cuts to the skin of the arms or legs. This is casually referred to as "cutting"; a person who routinely does this may be colloquially called "a cutter". Localized multiple cuts, especially those similar in appearance, are sometimes characteristic of cutting, but are not reliable indicators of self-injury. Less frequently, this behaviour may involve cutting other parts of the body, including the breasts and sexual organs. Other examples of self-injury include:

* Punching, hitting and scratching
* Choking, constricting of the airway
* Self-biting of hands, limbs, tongue, lips, or arms
* Picking at wounds, ulceration, sutures, or blemishes
* Burning, including cigarette burns, and self-incendiarism (as well as eraser burns)
* Stabbing self with wire, pins, nails, or pens
* Ingesting corrosive chemicals, batteries, or pins [6]
* Over-dosing on medication and/or alcohol, without suicidal intent

Some people also report self-poisoning as a form of repetitive self-injury with no suicidal intent. [4]

A popular misconception of self-injury is that it is an attention seeking behavior. In truth, many people who self-injure are very self-conscious of their wounds and scars and go to great lengths to conceal their behavior from others. They may offer alternative explanations for their injuries or conceal their scars with clothing. [4] [7]

In the strictest terms, self-harm is a general term for self-damaging activities (which could include alcohol abuse and bulimia), whereas self-injury refers more specifically to the practice of cutting, bruising, poisoning, over-dosing (without suicidal intent), burning or otherwise directly injuring the body. [8] Many people, including health-care workers, define self-harm based around the act of damaging one's own body. It may be more accurate to define self-harm based around the intent, and the emotional distress that the person wishes to deal with. An example of this form of definition can be seen in those provided by the support group LifeSIGNS [9].

Neither the DSM-IV-TV nor the ICD-10 provide diagnostic criteria for self-injury. It is often seen as only a symptom of an underlying disorder, [5] though many people who self-injure would like this to be addressed. [7]

Jesus is fucking metal!

2007-02-11T04:23:00.000+08:00

funny chat gone wrong...(talking cock with my friend don't take it seriously girls) M18

2007-02-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

a recall of what me and my ex-classmate chat about...
( to ) are quotes

(this is basically an icebreaker)
Friend:yo
Friend:Yup
ME: yeah..better do your best in poly
ME:i might never get to see you guys anymore
Friend:y?
ME:don't ask too much
Friend:kk
ME:small kids won't understand
Friend:-_-'''
ME:remember to attend my funeral
Friend:?
ME:oh by the way have you received another ns letter?
ME:reposting letter
Friend:the defer letter
ME:deferred to 1st week of may right?
Friend:yup
ME:how come i don't have?
ME:FUCK!
ME:somemore i repost to guards
ME:they desperately need me?
Friend:u dun got the letter
ME:nope...they say wait till 3rd week of feb, i and xian hui same
Friend:kk
ME:fuck lah tell me what to do? , no girl wanna go out with me, i'm too rough, i push them onto the bed...hoooooooooowww!! got tips?("here comes the interesting part")
Friend:do u u say sorry?
ME:like ooopss sorry, but her bang too hard already("i'll never bang a girl, girls are gentle but unless they ask for it :)" )
Friend:u bang her where? is she angry or not?
ME:nope she enjoyed it, but i don't want to do that to other girls,some girls like rough,some girls don't but you got experience right? how to tell if they want rough?
Friend:dun tell me u have sex?("as if i had a chance with looks like mine")
ME:erm...abit shy lah...but i did it
Friend:but u got use comdom or not?
ME:she said she don't want
Friend:do i sound like? or look like?
Friend:when and wat how?( "he's interested in knowing")
ME:last week, i had alittle too much, plus this girl is damn hot, i think she more drunk then me, she ask me wanna fuck? i said cannot cause brother bo eng("although i do drink alot and can get really high like the sky, i still have full control")
Friend: omg ("indeed...")
Friend:is the gal in the pic?("my last dp, the chio bu's")
ME:the one on the right, hot right? but then i thought to myself why waste this chance?("yeap, can only happen in dreams")
Friend:fuck damn hot
ME:look like jap man, so yeap this is what happened,she dragged me to some fucking hotel, and i wanted to bath lah, but she bath with me instead, damn....("it's my fantasy to take a bath with my loved one before the magic happens")
Friend:how do u know her?
ME:through friends("i have such close female friends? now that's shocking!")
Friend:WOW! she look too good("no shit")
ME:hard to believe right?
Friend:very hard to believe("yeah i know you're better looking, no need to be so negative")
ME:ok then....but she's good in bed, man.....wanna try?
Friend:want but can not
ME:why? LP?("the girl he's interested in")
Friend:no
ME:forget her lah, got better girls,you deserve better("i may be cruel, but seriously he got rejected 2 times by her and still he wants to suffer, its hard being me to help, even determination has its limits")
Friend: still looking for better gal, you and the gal how?("changes topic, how original")
ME:haiz...contact her also cannot,i wanna bang her again sian...she took my virginity("will that ever happen? only GOD knows")
Friend:i tot u going to ask her to be ur gf?("me? haha..if it does happen i fucking spend my whole life in church")
ME:oh well...at least it was from a hot girl,she's older than me by 5 years("i prefer older girls, but i still don't mind younger or same age")
Friend:wow! 24
ME:yeah...i said i go for girls 18-25,great experience but i still need to learn how to do better
Friend:man y? u so fast?("its a new way to express max love to the other just like sims, our generation rules!")
ME:fast?
Friend:lose ur v("V for vendetta?")
ME: its better to start early, then got experience, so when married i can make my wife feel great she would never want to leave me("this is basically bullshit, sex after marriage is more interesting and fun, especially to experiment :) but i might have it before marriage ahahahha )
Friend:hahaha,man she look too hot("are you really laughing? i know you're interested in her too")
ME:check this pic out, KAWAII~~~
ME:woooooooot, the hot one who fucked me is wearing adidas("girls like adidas huh?")
Friend:the one siting
ME:all day i dream about sex how true("a lame joke though")
Friend:hahaha, sry i have to ask u shoot in or out("wow..daring sia")
ME:in lor...i first time, plus got female condom, i didn't put one though("this is where i fucking screwed up...damn if not it'll get very interesting")
Friend:lucky...("he must be thinking...fucking gorge you nearly pwn me")
ME:she say for guys don't have better feeling("to try and cover")
Friend:but safety first("even construction work sites emphasis this rule")
ME:indeed...("sarcastically")
Friend:and gal like rough("haha interesting discovery")
ME:really?coooooool
Friend:rough but not too rough or they think u crazy ("how you expect to explain? crazy? in what way? i've many crazies in me")
ME:yes master
Friend:sry i haven lose my v("so you telling you watch porn for research?")
ME:aw...maybe next time i teach you("in your dreams")
Friend:mybe next time("if i'm alive at that time")
ME:to tell you the truth......("i was about to end it with i'm just fucking around with you but....")
Friend:but first i need a gal("interesting")
ME:it feels GREAT!!!, your looks easy to find lah,all you need is the charisma, talk to girls with confidence, show off abit but not too much, show off something you really did, there...("he's really good looking, big size but lack of self-esteem and confidence and he ain't a funny guy...pretty boring guy, i like to pick on him just to see his reaction, and for me to give advice like i know, now that's a secret
Friend:like wat?
ME:lets say i play games well,i show them how i play, teach them, talk to them, interact with them...the beginning part i know what to do but the sex part i completely noob("*ahem* this is basic socializing and it works..even though i rarely do it cause i'm shy towards pretty girls aha..oh and i'm not a flirt that sex thing was what i got from watching a movie when a dud hooks a hottie up")
Friend:i dun know wat i good at i also noob("now that's fucked up")
ME:that you got to find out liao("how do you think i know what's he good at?")
MEyou have to find out yourself and not others find for you
ME:oh and i do know i play drums well nobody knew that, try and figure what you like and do best("i act showoff nia i play averagely..i trying to show the whole i play drums")
Friend:yup i know("yeah he knows cause i played drums while he was at my filming of that fucked up vid")
ME:you make models right? there you have it, something you're good at("here comes real help")
Friend:gal will not like("models? ehhh i don't know leh")
ME: ok then... you have to find her interests, thats the best, then relate with them lor, like ask them what show they watch, something interesting and not boring stuff("i may know how to do but seriously never tried that")
Friend:kk i try next time
ME:you better, and in all due seriousness,i'm still a virgin
ME:gorge the entertainer strikes again! i've done my part, its up to you to build your confidence
Friend:so tell the true did u really have or not("he stills think i did it when i said i'm still a virgin...man i'm too trustful")
ME:a hot girl like her fuck me? if my looks impossible, if my way of socializing possible, go figure..("socializing possible in my lucid dreams")
Friend:i still think u dun do it("didn't you read above?")
ME: well...you can say that, but in terms of able to talk to her, high man high!, i'm training to talk to girls by the way("who doesn't get high talking to a hottie? and yeap i'm trying to break the shy barrier")
Friend:she look too hot for u
ME:wahahaha! so i derseve someone not hot? how did i get her pic then?
Friend:no but still to fast and hard for me to believe("you're that slow")
ME:anything can happen,who knows mingfu might date a hot chick("looks ain't important")
Friend:true
ME:yeap, anyways did you still contact lp?
Friend:no sad
ME: well...you can take the one beside the hot one she's good too hahahaha ("the pic...another hot one beside the one i was talking about")
Friend:i think her age is around 23
ME:yeah...mature ladies are hot("its so fucking true, better yet chinese too")
Friend:now the gal also look nice("genes?")
ME:yeah even 16 year old girls look good("i'm not a pedophile just a suggestion")
Friend:she 16?("changed to another pic")
ME:this girl --->
ME:same age as us
Friend:kk look cute("of course cute..plus she's terence's friend")
ME:she is cute...how's my entertainment?
Friend:wat enterainment?("ZOMG! he still doesn't get it!")
ME:me entertaining you
Friend:good, something different
ME:well...you know what,i'm still interested in ******, i did chat with her often
Friend:i think u still got some feeling for her("i don't know about that, just a simple crush")
ME:yeah...but its like those infatuation, oh by the way she just online("i did wanna chat with her straightaway")
Friend:then talk to her
ME:her status = busy, you got add her on msn?
Friend:no("guess she's not interested in meeting guys...:(" )
ME:ok i'm gonna see if i can talk to her now
Friend:kk, and ask is she going for gDay
ME:i did ask her, she's not going
Friend:r u going?
ME:yeah maybe
Friend:kk
ME:i should be going cause if i don't the result have to take at a later date("it looks weird if i'm wearing formal..plus i'm not a good person to actually go to those nerdy functions")
Friend:kk then i also go("didn't i said maybe?")
ME:yeah, lets wear casual, sure look weird for me("i don't want people to see me in those...ITS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE!")
Friend:kk
ME:imagine chatting with 2-3 girls simulti, wah shiok
Friend:so good introduct some to me("i'm bullshitting lah")
ME:i know them through msn, friendster, myspace and last.fm, some is i randomly chat lor, just look at friendster lor("i rarely go friendster and myspace cause it's boring")
Friend:kk
ME:right i'm gonna sleep, chat another time("when one's blasting metal, never disturb him, you might get moshed/headbanged to the ground")
Friend:kk good nite
ME: nightz

HE STILL BELIEVES I HAD SEX! well.......he got pwned by me

pretty interesting...pretty bored....

2007-01-31T23:18:00.001+08:00

check this out...

to tell you the truth...only mikey way is more accurate...if i did his hairstyle
and i look more like chester if i had no bloody acne

THIS IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP!

ietrsenting...

2007-01-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdgnieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

i was...

2007-01-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

kick out of church as usual because i was wearing slayer's t-shirt, you know the one with the pentagram? haha it's interesting to see them kicking me out and me acting all possessed...man even fun has it's limits...oh well i wonder if chc can take it? i might get crucified...

for any chc members reading this, i'm sorry

God taught to forgive so forgive me

yay!
gorge

but...

2007-01-29T15:44:00.000+08:00

in all due seriousness...WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO GO OUT WITH A GUY WHO THINKS OUT OF THE BOX WAY TOO OFTEN? SOMEONE WHO ENJOYS PAIN, GORE AND THE DEVIL'S MUSIC(Although it's not even close to being one)AND WORSE YET,ACNE SCARS?

yeap, that explains my eccentric behavior

i can only be happy for awhile

cheers
gorge

my dream girl...

2007-01-28T00:30:00.000+08:00

there's this girl i really am interested in and i don't know how to approach her...but at least i managed to chat with her often on msn, but then again i don't know if she'll accept me, only time can tell...basically this is one of the greatest crush i've got with her

i'll just take things slowly, get to know her more and not rush...hopefully something magical might happen lol...

otherwise i can be prepared for a rejection or if she does accept me, i'll be sure to give her all i've got to make her happy when she's sad, or share her joy when she's happy...i'll work for her, i'll cook for her, i'll do anything just to see her smile....i'll quit all bad habits like smoking and drinking if she doesn't like it and i really mean it I DO!

from what i know, a relationship without conflicts is a boring relationship therefore i'll make it a interesting one...being mean at times and being romantic at times, this should give the relationship some life

oh i do like girls with abit of meat, too skinny i might injure her if i'm not careful cause you know...i'm a pretty rough fella...

soooooooo in love....
my depression and anger are gone, i'm a happy guy now

I'm

2007-01-07T15:02:00.000+08:00

Broke....definitely

I'm

2007-01-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

depressed...

my vid project

2006-12-09T16:02:00.000+08:00

although it was a rushed project, i still think it was done well even though there's some out of sync moments...do check it out below

Zank.ers - Faint(LP Cover)

i know the singer sucks, but no choice he was begging me to be in my group
i could have done both singing and drumming
lesson learned, never be too kind-hearted

metal

2006-11-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

very little people understand what is metal and they stereotype and look at me as if i was listening to satan's music...ah fuck, if they think this way, so be it cause they are fucking stupid, i'll play along and act...in fact i think i should be nominated for
the grammy's for acting all psycho, lets see, i've been doing it for 6-7 years? man! i should be an actor.

for some reason, i believe one day metal will rise to fuck all those HATERS! kinda abit like the nu-metal era and the emo era..now it should be the metalcore era and please...i'm not being an elitist, i can't stand haters...if it goes on like this...i fucking kill people who listen to techno,i ain't kidding cause i have decided if i don't have a future, might as well as bring some people down with me.

i'm off to wash my face...its getting worst because of working.
and of all my sec friends, i don't think anyone even knows i am working OT..
i still remember that fucker who said i was NATO...you fucking watch out,i remember those words,i bet you can't keep your job but of course you won't bother to come to this blog and read cause you can't stand metal...fucking weakling you deserve nothing more than death

i'm busy

2006-11-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

busy with work, rushing with projects and of course hanging out with my friends

no time to blog any fuck until end of this year

blood...

2006-10-19T14:57:00.002+08:00

i have the urge to kill and have the craving for blood...why is that? who the fuck knows?

^^ are fillers just like bloody animes

next time if i crack a lame joke, think before you say i'm lame...you might hurt my feelings cause i am really lame with the fact of the 2 times i dislocated my knee... and i still can't forget about it...still am fucking depressed..

worst still,i have no trustworthy friends left..they are all backstabbers...friends for life? bull fucking shit! if anything happens to them i don't want to see them come crawling to me for help...i'll laugh at their fucking face...i may be lonely now, but at least i have a friend...and that is the devil

disclamer : this post was written when gorge "was" intoxicated
basically all the above are just fillers

school?

2006-10-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

school starts whats the big fucking deal?

fucking people are so happy for what?

MCR - Welcome To The Black Parade

2006-10-13T08:27:00.000+08:00

simple post of the vid before anyone i know does it...i'm first!

worship...

2006-10-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

lets worship guan yu by playing CHINESE CHESS!

the best solution is to grow a fucking rob zombie beard..and cut open your arm while playing chinese chess...

fuck gotta go piss....

hoho

2006-10-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

just had a new piecing to the ears today...although its small, i'm gonna change it to a big button like thingy don't know what its called this coming sat or sunday..so maybe by end of next month i'm going for lip piercing...can't wait

heres a pic of my ear...kinda hard to see...

i know my ex-best friend thinks i'm childish/silly which i don't think it was but i have limits too...i can't believe a friend of mine would ignore me...that basically hurts me alot...it just goes to show that i ain't anything to him and thats the reason for the severing of ties...i don't want to go through that shitty feeling, i know about the promises, treating me to almost everything when i can't afford a fucking shit,whats wrong with letting me experience alittle fun? smoking? haven't you done that? so i can't try?you can have fun but not me?...and now i gotta forget that pain...i still remembered when we played pool together almost every week having lots of fun..and that was before he started a relationship, "i won't forget my friends" was sprouted out WHAT BULLFUCK!, sadly thats history, so i finally let it all out..3 bestest friends are now fucked up..including me, nobody won!

moving on.......

a new life begins

2006-10-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

i've lost everything and i'm gonna move on....

new haircut, new look, new specs, new personality , new attitude....

something for the people out there

Take your past and burn it up and let it go
Carry on,I’m stronger than you’ll ever know
That’s the deal you get no respect
You’re gonna get yours
You better watch your fucking neck

taken from the song "to be loved" by papa roach...

the only cool school pics i've taken

2006-10-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

this will be the best and last pic of me in long hair...gotta cut/trim my hair for work...damn sad..4-5 months of not cutting all gone to waste...nvm i can grow again if i'm going to higher nitec or poly...i decided to show the pics..cause, i'm a show off...

fun pose 1...I'M COOL!

basically this is the standard photo...all with the attitude pose..man i'm fucking cool

fun pose 2, i don't know whats with the extra boxes but the "point in the sky" pose was my idea, and my gang did it lol..

so the next few days i'll be busy doing my project that i don't think i am that free...plus work might start soon...i'll try to trim my hair allllllittle bit...i don't wanna cry if its short...i hate to cry

regrets?

2006-09-24T02:15:00.000+08:00

i feel a sense of regret and guilt...why? i don't even know why! its like i am basically a transparent piece of shit..i can't even figure out why i feel like shit...
could it be another bout of depression? hope not..i still remember what happened the last time...

guess i've decided to quit smoking by the end of holidays...gotta enjoy while it lasts...

i hate acne...photos make me look like shit...never take photos again...

sleeping giant

2006-09-22T16:52:00.000+08:00

Earth has burst
Mountain flames
Moon beheld
Father snake
Mind control
Has left its nest
Shame on
Bulls roar loud
The fearless fall
Wooden vessel
Broken wings
Caught my killer
In my grave
Shame on
Eyes of grace
Kill again
Trapped in maze
Trembling fear
Head scorched brow
Perish the land
Shame on
A vast calm wilderness
The call to adventure comes
Lead and land atop this rock
Infinite path carved with unrivaled skill

pukage

2006-09-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

a first for me i must say.... and that was when we were about to leave the place...great experience, too bad my specs are broken can't meet much less see any girls, wonder when we can go again?

heard alot of conflicts going on among my friends...but it ain't my problem thats him not me...settle in a manly way fucktard
basically they ain't friends but shitheads who claim to be holy and ignore the bad...pathetic...didn't christ teach to change the bad?...
the world is screwed up if the 2nd coming ever happens

virgin

2006-09-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

i lost my virginity to jack daniels...
i was raped brutally by chivas regal...
it was absolut vodlka...

pressure is on for the pro...gotta be metally prepared...
and wtf is wrong with trivuim?
gotta dig my ears again...

enough is enough its time for a change

2006-09-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

a change for the better it seems, got to put away lame jokes and go for the serious, and thankfully george carlin is there for me,if it ain't a good style for me i go back to comic..

CHEERS
SINCE SOBS SLEEP, I AIN'T A SOB! GRATS!

keith

2006-09-01T16:55:00.000+08:00

hey keith urban, if you wanna cry tonight, GO AND CRY TO YOUR MAMA FUCKING PUSSY

teh million dollar qu3stion

2006-08-31T00:55:00.000+08:00

should gorge?

a)cut his fucking hair?
b)style it like those fucking gay emo cunts
c)keep it long like a true metalhead
d)fucking change sex
e)limpei don't fucking care this son of a bitch

how to tell....part 1

2006-08-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

how do you tell if that person was a "religious freak"?

1.carries a bible in his bag even when he walks the dog
2.looks at you and smiles at you like you know him for ages
3.that smile he gave you has a small smirk
4.he starts a conversation with a prayer
5.starts a converstation with a bible in hand and asks you to flip on your imaginary bible to revelations and read the whole damn chapter and tells you that you are like them and God will forgive you and blah blah..
6.starts a converstation with a girl asking her..."hey, do you know jesus?"
7.if you offend God he screams back with his eyes wide open like he saw a ghost trying to control his anger:"I LOVE GOD,GOD LOVES ME, HE WILL FORGIVE YOU! NOW GIVE ME YOUR HAND AND I'LL SAY A PRAYER!"
8.he eats bible verses for breakfast
9.without milk
10.thinks and looks foward to everyday thinking its the second coming of jesus
11.when he sees something with horns he grabs the cross on his neck like a terrified chicken getting ready to be chopped on the GANK screaming for God
12.looks like a geek in a black suit

no offence to the christians out there...just trying to be funny like dane cook...even though it ain't funny cause its my jokes...more to come..if i can think of more

cheese for my bread...

2006-08-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

fucking cheese fuckers stole my cheese...now i cannot eat my bread...CHEESE BUN!

rofl...my bad...

2006-08-26T01:05:00.001+08:00

It is time to attend the media conference called to announce my new Cabinet. I read out my line-up.

"Sissy, Love, Hole, Cock, Cunt, Quim, Kachng, Crotch, Bollocks, Lampar…"

The whole room was stunned into silence. Something is not right. I looked at the list. Oops, that was the line-up for my World Cup Dream Team: Cisse, Love, Cole, Cox, Kahn, Quim, Carsen, Crouch, Ballack, Lampard.

Wrong list. I looked at the other list I had. It was the list for the Second-rate Team. That's the correct list.

oh and by the way...my hand is recovering after that wall punch and it should be ready to whack soon..can't wait...

somebody's gonna be own3d!

morning...

2006-08-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

guess what happen? i woke up and instead of having birds flying over...i saw flying fish..OMG! it was awesome..and they said hi to me...they even sang through struggle...only thing was the constant muffled sound covering like the song was playing underwater...i tell you...i am so fucked up now...FUCKING HIGH! THE FISH GOT BRUSH TEETH!

lets copy...

2006-08-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

since i got nothing to do, i'll post something, today or LAST FRIDAY I THINK, i read about other blogs bitching about other blogs like what this blog is trying to do, and by the way i ain't offending no gay...then after that i went to school and saw some birds flying...MAN THE BIRDS SO CUTE! i could just catch them and hug them then bite their heads off...after that wait for the fucking bus then saw some girl "LE"...very chio "WOR" i fucking gave her a stare and she laugh at my acne...AW SO CUTE! after that i don't give a fuck i left the bus...wah i tell you the girl "STAB(step?) YI GE"...i go school half-high, half-siao, half-horny, half-wtfyoucallit? then walk that fucking small gate where "COOL" people are fagging or wait i mean smoking and walk over the path that tall guys need to bend to get fucked doggy style, and guess what? I SAW THE SAME BIRDS FLY! man one day i must talk 1v1 with the bird and ask them why "BO JIO" me? maybe add a question asking them whether they got brush their teeth or not? or wait not teeth but beaks... and then, GOSH! i saw a flying piggy, SO CUTE looks alot like terence but with a cigar...you know terence don't smoke cigar but cheap ciggs...oh well, i slap that pig with my ultimate lvl 3 and from nowhere i heard "HOOOOLY SHIT" and i lvled up...that pig dropped a "DIVINE VODKA" oh fuck, that damage " KAN ZI TEH SONG" what 30+ extra damage...i tell you i slap a girl she can fly like those birds i said earlier... after that i went to rent some skate to skate to the forth floor for my lesson and "SUN BIAN" learn how to skate and refresh my mind...but i nearly fall and broke my leg again...kao i keep on falling leh...like no end..you know that movie wtf was that? ehhh oh yeah..CLINKS? yeah the bone wtf fall inside the mid river like no end no mana ww and nearly tio GB wah! and my bones like him nearly broke because of the gravitational force e=mc2 cock stuff, DAMN F**king pain lor. so i decided to change to bike cause...i sibei bo liao..but next time i learn again lor, cause must need determination which i don't have and perserverance after buying void stone for 900 and some endurance from the new version..

after that hor, i "PINGPONG?" school go watch movie with my friends...wah must take bus 76 lor...GO TO MY HOUSE WATCH PIRATED LEH...after that hor we got downstairs kopitiam burger queen buy burger...wah kao the counter knn sibei f up one...i ask for extra sugar for my kopi she don't want give me...WTF! so i call my friend hold her face while i cast finger of pain lvl 1 into her eyes...wah kao the red zap damn bright i nearly blind leh somemore can hear first blood!...i think she tio 450 damage...wah i tell you i sibei pro leh...no one can beat me! hahaha i "stab yi ge" only...ok lah i go kun liao....tomorrow i going out with sai

oh and one last thing... LIFE HAS TO GO ON LEH, CAUSE IT'S CCB FATED YOU KNOW?

hmmm

2006-08-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

you want an update? well this is an update! FUCK YOU!

disgusting shit...

2006-08-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

i saw something way disgusting that its way beyond desciption...damn its so fucking disgusting, shit...maybe one day i shall tell that to a innocent girl...oh fuck she's gonna hate me for that

I think...

2006-08-20T17:22:00.000+08:00

i broke my finger after punching the wall in school after being so high....way too stupid

interesting yet...funny?

2006-08-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

what kind of penises does dota heroes have?

1. dwarven - small but long range
2. tiny - rocky
3. treant - twiggy
4. techies - exploding
5. tormented soul - bombastic
6. pudge- that might sound too disgusting
7. skeleton king - bring back to life after a battle
8. magina - drains energy
9. pandaren - splits into 3 mighty...
10. lich - cold
11. balanar - grows only at night
12. bloodseeker - bloodseeker (don't ask why)
13. knight davion - becomes a dragon
14. ogre magi - has 2 heads
15. rikimaru - oh! where is your d*ck?
16. terrorblade - can duplicate themself
17. troll - he will go to organism in 1 sec
18. nerbian assasin- spiked
19. prophet - his d*ck was around by deep jungle !!
20. naix - suck blood from p*ssy

30/30-150

2006-08-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

thirty thirty one fifty remembers...

thirty thirty one fifty HATES....

rotting in hell

2006-08-07T01:26:00.000+08:00

whoever said that i like the band H.I.M shall rot in fucking hell...you know who you are

i never like fucking love metal and gay power pop shitty emo faggots fuckturds of the century..

music and not their attitude, think!

metal, hardcore whatever thats fucking hard FTW! emo ain't the only genre with screaming shitheads

best of all christian metal...

this basically owns the debate

FUCK THOSE CUNT PUSSIES EMO SHIT

for the record i ain't gay, not happy? BITE ME THEN! BITE MY SHINY METAL HAIRY WHITE ARSE AND STICK IT UP YOUR SNOTTY FUCKED UP NOSE.

cheers,
fellow metalhead gorge

art update...

2006-08-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

a few pics i've improve after the sketch...this time theres color! WOW! check them out...

tim lambesis the vocalist from one of my fave band AILD

dan jacobs the guitarist from another one of my fave band atreyu

and lastly the usual gang....dyed hair=fungi...bloody hell need to erase to make the pic better especially gy's hair

CnC at the tagboard

compare the difference

2006-08-03T17:45:00.000+08:00

compare this old secondary pic and a pic from end of last year after my dislocation with the current pic

what do you see? yeap the obvious of course...my face gets worser...lets see how worse can it get, only time can tell

bang

2006-07-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

one sentence, i am not drunk, just freaking high

oh damn that beer is awesome

3 video update

2006-07-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

i have 3 videos up...

bfmv(bullet for my valentine)'s new single tears don't fall which i listened since last year for crying out loud...pretty hilarious ending.
moral of the video? DON'T CHEAT YOUR GF OR BF

Lamb Of God's new single for their new album which is what i am looking forward to.
very cute video..
moral of the video? don't jump the gun and hire the wrong band LAMB OF GOD IS NO LITTLE LAMB!

one of my favourite goth band after nightwish..ITALIANS TOO!
am i the only one who thinks Cristina Scabbia has a very beautiful voice as well as the sexy looks?
moral of the video? definitely the third time i heard enjoy the silence's cover including other bands

and theres more from where it came from

2006-07-20T08:38:00.000+08:00

i made like a few more pics for 3-4 minutes take a look

using photo taken from handphones have this kind of effect which is really funny, look at my baby bro, looks like an alien! ROFL!

this three are the best among them because of the photos taken from digital cameras that are not so pixelised...the pencil sketch effect this is...why i add my nick in every pic? cause i don't want people to think i DIDN'T DO THIS MYSELF

if anybody want some pics in this particular effect send me on msn...you know my email of course..

in tribute of kurt cobain

2006-07-20T08:22:00.000+08:00

after discovering he had ADHD which i had too...i decided to do something for fun and created this pic...

it doesn't take a genius to do this, for others who use photoshop this is basic...

i knew something new about me

2006-07-20T06:28:00.000+08:00

now i i know i get depressed easily when i am not myself as in being quiet and all, i was trying to control myself from doing stupid things or things that are crazy or whatever that nobody will do, suppressing those behavior is fucking tough for i am kinda like those hyperactive jackasses.

i should have seen a psychiatrist when i was a kid was what i thought when i read this article.....

The symptoms of ADHD fall into the following two broad categories:[4]

Inattention:

1. Failing to pay close attention to details or making careless mistakes when doing schoolwork or other activities
2. Trouble keeping attention focused during play or tasks
3. Appearing not to listen when spoken to
4. Failing to follow instructions or finish tasks
5. Avoiding tasks that require a high amount of mental effort and organization, such as school projects
6. Frequently losing items required to facilitate tasks or activities, such as school supplies
7. Excessive distractibility
8. Forgetfulness

Hyperactivity-impulsive behavior

1. Fidgeting with hands or feet or squirming in seat
2. Leaving seat often, even when inappropriate
3. Running or climbing at inappropriate times
4. Difficulty in quiet play
5. Frequently feeling restless
6. Excessive speech
7. Answering a question before the speaker has finished
8. Failing to await one's turn
9. Interrupting the activities of others at inappropriate times

A positive diagnosis is usually only made if the patient presents with at least six of the above symptoms. In addition, a positive diagnosis is made if six or more of these symptoms presented before the age of seven; the symptoms usually begin to appear between the ages of four and six. Symptoms must appear consistently in varied environments. (Ex: At home, school, and in public.)

Children who grow up with ADHD often continue to have symptoms as they grow into adulthood. Adults face some of their greatest challenges in the areas of self-control and self-motivation, as well as executive functioning (also known as working memory). If the patient is not treated appropriately, co-morbid conditions, such as depression and anxiety may present as well. If a patient presents with such conditions as well, the co-morbid condition is usually treated first.

i fall into the Hyperactivity-impulsive behavior catergory...but i guess maybe i am changing now...or not? it is never late for me to see a psychiatrist but i give myself time to confirm if i really have this problem...

remember the time in secondary school? for no apparent reason i would fidget with whatever my hands can hold on to not to mention always leaving my seat for no reason but sometimes to always go to the back and talk no 3 rarely happens but i like climbing on fences and toilet cubicles even now no 4 is something i don't know but i can't stand quiet enviroments no 5 being restless for me is common...i almost sleep at least 2 times a day I NEVER PLAY SPORTS I STILL GET FUCKING TIRED no 6 excessive speech is something i never do now...i prefer to shut the fuck up..no 7 remember the infamous mr lee question when i got blasted for answering without him finishing the question? or the time whenever a teacher teaches i would always interrept? or give witty smart alek comments? definitely a habit even now...no 8 is a no for sure..i have patience, i think....no 9 is a habit of mine..i love disturbing people and its fun....

so you see, i have some kind of ADHD disorder without me knowing till i found out kurt cobain suffered the same thing...fated or lucky? i guess its good to know more about myself.

i give myself 2 months before i go see a psychiatrist...watch this space...if you care

?

2006-07-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

there was a misunderstanding today but its settled...SIMPLE AND EASY UPDATE

one word

2006-07-15T05:22:00.000+08:00

ingride

blogger's world record

2006-07-08T07:33:00.000+08:00

i shall attempt something no one has attempted before and that is to post the longest post and it will start from here onwards.

since i wasn't really blogging from the birthday event till now i will make a recall, my birthday was a celebration at a pub where vanessa worked named mama africa and there was a brasil - ghana match which ended with a 3-0 win for the faves...i even bet and won 8 bucks which is little of course, drank some german beer that tastes really good and sadly i was hoping i could get drunk on this very day but i didn't cause i did not have the mood...it felt like i was sad to be 18, people there were gy,hong,xl,gy's sis,vanessa,jess way to little people.....my bandmates ain't there cause i did not invite them and it was something i regret, reason why i left them out was because i don't think they will wanna go to the pub not to mention me being a lazy fucker...ITE friends can't make it cause they are busy but are making it up on 10 july but playing pool with me and going shopping for new clothes which i really need badly and ending the day with dinner and maybe some drinking...

theres the steamboat last sat and like usual very little people went for it, and i know because i was there that not many people wanna go, anyways the usual people vanessa, gy, hong KAN lah, liting and gy's sis wan ying...jess wanted to come but can't because of something that she fucked up or whatever...i was hoping she brings her violin and jumped on top of the table and play a solo from yellowcard's only one since she was supposed to come from her violin lessons or exams....and like what i felt on my birthday, the feeling of loneliness which i don't know why happened again and i didn't even drink any alchohol that day making it kinda boring...gy's pretty popular with the girls too

and theres chalet last wed organised by gy(again), usual gang went there and the unexpected visit from bj...and i can say this was one of the most boring chalet stay i had in my whole chalet experience...i had no one to talk to and i basically don't have any mood to mingle around...all i did was play ps2 and drank beer as usual while i watched the portugal and france match with everyone and that was the only moment that i felt excited for some reason and walking outside downtown east alone after midnight ALONE on the first day and drank 4 cans sitting at the shelter near the fitness corner listening to my metal music and staring into space, the next day was rather cheerful for me cause jeremy and jonathan came although i felt they will not come...feeling a little angry cause jeremy told me he will not be coming but came instead, the feeling of my bandmates being there removed any anger during that situation and i decided to talk to them about what we liked most...MUSIC like metalcore and jonathan has already hopped on the metalcore train which is surprising for me....what made me kinda sad though was that early that morning when i was very tired from drinking the night before that i was so sleepy i can't get up to play pool with the others...and all i had was mac's burger for lunch which i ate alone listening to music from wild wild wet...bj's wondering why i was like a pathetic dog and i just told her i prefer bring alone, but all i was thinking i was trying to avoid being left out..as promised i did not do anything stupid and crazy cause gy doesn't like it so i , as a good friend honored that promise and kept myself very NORMAL and unlike my usual self...

i was becoming a boring mother fucker that no one wants to talk to me...and i knew it all along...night came and we had the leftovers of the bbq and i send jeremy and jonathan back after we chat and ate at macs...walked with them to the bus stop and talked about jamming again if possible..everyone's busy with their own stuff except for me who felt that theres no meaning alive anymore..i don't feel like that same george anymore...everyones better than me...i never changed at all i am the same negative guy everyone knows...anyways i was deciding whether i should leave after bathing but stayed put cause xl ask me to...so i played with them and the rest of the gang came back from somewhere where i don't know and after that we went out to buy alchohol....again.....at the 7th eleven outside downtown east...i walked alone like it was endless and felt really really down...i can't explain why but its not because of anybody in the gang but myself...i was upset with myself...after buying the drinks we went back and i saw my ITE friend which made me happy cause at least i have someone to talk to while i drink, darren was awesome, he gave us some beer and kept me company while we talk about what we are going to do during the rest of the holidays and both of us felt that the holidays suck and prefer to go to school and i fully understand why he was sad too, the girl he likes rejects him and the boss he worked for haven't even give him his paycheck...we drank up to the sadness...then haresh nigel and xl came out to have a few drinks and nigel smoked cause well...nobody is supposed to smoke inside and played a few games of dai dee before going on to make that explosion nigel wants to, my fiend kept his friends company while i joined the gang to make that explosion and was really really bored that i brought along 3 cans of beer and finished most of it...i was like 1/5 drunk? but i am still in full control...then we waited for the fire to start.

while waiting for it, i took out the 2 cans of beer and drank it with xl...one shot fast and neat, and to tell you the truth, he ain't a good drinker(no offence)...he was already high after awhile while i didn't get high enough...he was starting to do stupid things which was very funny and made me laugh after so long and i was happy that at least he kept me company by being drunk like me...he doggy styled haresh while he was starting the fire...that was pure gold, anyways while we were waiting, i was so bored that i decided to try my first puff,i light up and took a puff and didn't cough at all cause the smoke did not go all the way down which is what first timers should react...i holded my breathe and was kinda stupid...

i let out the smoke and it felt fun like i was blowing bubbles...then xl took a puff as well and gy and terence...we shared the stick...after that we finally saw 3 explosions and it was so fucking hot and big....luckily no one woke up from the explosion and laughter we made. after that we went back and i wanted to drink more so xl and i took the remaining 8 cans and asked gy to accompany us but he was too tired to do it even though i told him that it was the last night and that at least we should get drunk together for fun...so i and xl went out to drink with my friend and we chatted about stupid stuff and i took another few puffs of the cig for fun of course while holding my breathe like an idiot and i will never try smoking again it feels stupid...then i and xl decided to finish all of the beer fast and get high, my friend, after 2 cans went back to sleep...i can tell he was out.

while i and xl finished everything we did stupid things together...i was laughing like fuck and was really feeling happy and i felt that i can't walk straight anymore...xl keep on telling me he can't walk straight like 4 times? and i was laughing like fuck as usual and he went to pee at the back of the chalet...i walk towards there and scared him and his reaction was freaking hilarious, i kept on laughing...then xl suggested we smash the carlsberg beer bottle my friend left and i said ok...in the end i did it in one shot broke it and laughed it away and went into the chalet for some sleep...it was the first time i see xl bring drunk which is really really hilarious...

he kept on talking cock and i kept on laughing...it felt so good that i can finally laugh after so long...for some reason i did not do anything stupid accept for the beer bottle which means i can still control myself even after drinking so much...the next morning i found myself lying on the bed with nigel and have absolutely no recall how i get there...the last time i was awake i remembered i was sleeping on the bed board...after that we all went back home, xl told me he had a little bit of headache while i told him i had a little even though it didn't felt like it....then it was time to go back...FINALLY!

boring but interesting thanks to my friend and bandmates who came to visit and lastly A drinking buddy who can get high with me was what made this chalet worthwhile, gy is angry with me cause i drank all the beer without leaving some for him and i didn't even pay for it...well the excuse i gave him was because i had no one to drink with that i decided i drink alone...pretty stupid of me to do that and i apologise for that...i'll make it up to them but buying them drinks next time and we shall get high together..anyways i thank everybody who went for the chalet at least everybody did their own thing...

this is sooooooo long that i bet some who read this will be bored halfway through
and for the record...i am no alchoholic..i just wanted to get high so i can feel happy and for fun...though it sounds like what an alchoholic would say, i know i can control it...trust me

as usual,
gorge signing off and blasting metal music at home alone

legal drinking from today onwards

2006-06-27T02:29:00.000+08:00

its my birthday today and i will lose my virginity.. not only that i can just simply drink before going to school...i will get drunk one day before going to school to see what the teachers and my friends reaction will be, i'll post the results when that happens.

as an argentina supporter before even the world cup started, they are now currently in the first place for most goals score with germany trailing behind, with 3 wins , 0 lost and a draw, the 2 powerful teams are going head to head and of course i am gonna support argentina. Anyways, italy was lucky to get that penalty last minute because of a wonderful dive from a wonderful italian from my opinion...i heard italians are good in faking and diving but i doubt so,i knew italy was a powerhouse with players like totti,inzaghi,nesta,gattuso and del piero there is no doubt they make make it to the semi, and to think most of the players are from my fave italian club ac milan...

watch out for the argentines for they will shake the world with a squad that is nearly invincible, messi the wayne rooney of england or the leo messi of england, riquelme, heinze, rodiguez, saviola, crespo and sorin to lead them to victory...
i may not be like those who are powerful supporters but i will start to support argentina from today onwards...nothing is going to change my mind...

and an update to my video section will be a new video from underOATH's new single writing on the walls... the current underOATH is now much heavier with dark undertones back to their metalcore roots which is what i prefer compared to the emocore/screamocore that is the album they're only chasing safety, for them its a good try to move to mainstream with the previous album and now they are famous

and venessa if you're reading this, i added your link to the links section but i doubt people will visit cause i don't have much traffic to my blog and i will be looking foward to my "so called" celebration which is only drinking to me....

holiday=a3ing+working+shopping+chalet+drinking

thats what i gonna do throughout the holidays
till the next post,
GORGE

Video
underoath's darkest video to date, i hate that crying woman..looks like crap

bands to take note

2006-06-15T03:52:00.000+08:00

its half time now and its 0-0 germany - poland

currently TOOL is one of many bands i am listening now, they definitely have what i always wanted to add into my songs, the dark and disturbing parts of the songs are what makes me come back for more and i hope i can really grasp this particular style and use it in future....

well lostprophet's album was leaked 2 days ago

and i have their latest single MV

posted below enjoy

since you're at it, watch this funny fella making impressions of people

and before i forget, i am gonna change the songlist and maybe my blog layout again if i am free....
cause you know, i am bleeding in my throat and it hurts
and now i know how chester felt

basically bored

2006-05-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

been busy homing my soccer skills after 2 months of recuperation, getting buffed for my nafa... if you support me, read the shit below

run kid run you have 30 seconds to mars from first position to last

this is what i am thinking as i lay dying and making the devildriver to destroy disturbed opethic shitholes

the lamb of god will take back sunday and make hawthorne heights look like pussies

sooner or later the arctic monkeys with an underoath will show the yellowcard to the red hot chili peppers standing at the corner of the cabinet

a demon hunter will rise with a atreyu to kill with a bullet to my valentine as she screams for her chemical romance

and we shall haste the day when blood is as simple as mud in vain

hatebreeds all the time

and a perfect circle will form to show the afters and aiden dancing to panic! at the disco

and that is when you know that trivium and the american rejects gave birth to the bloodhound gang

creed and nirvana along with queen will laugh at the funeral which they attended for their friend

as god forbids them to make fun of good charlotte with elven fingers pointing at them

gorillaz will start playing with goo goo dolls fort minor will be their base

foo fighters from the sky comes down and the boy fall outs

eighteen visions for this dream theater and a death cab will come to take a cutie to chimeria

the mother fucking end

or is it?

Credit: Jeremy Ong for the inspiration

basically this is crap but oh what the heck

blogging

2006-05-14T08:45:00.000+08:00

blogging is for people who have no life or have plenty of bloody time to waste away...FULLSTOP

so currently i am having a good life, till i post if i got time

insanity

2006-05-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

before any of you call me "siao", "crazy" or "insane" please read this shit

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Insanity

instead of calling me those ^^ i'll be more willing to accept being called creative and clever.

i am smart and clever but plain lazy. thats why i am where i am now

EAT THAT!

if you still ain't convinced read this crap

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mental_illness

i mean you all can search for it yourself, i didn't know monkeys have evolved, my god!

Death Note

2006-05-03T08:21:00.000+08:00

the death note movie is coming out soon and it's God's will that i spread the info

heres the trailer

i believe not much of my friends know death note but that ain't gonna stop me from watching it

hopefully the movie gets past censors or whatnot...rarely see jap manga movies and the character Light Yagami (夜神月 Yagami Raito) is actually an actor for battle royale 1 if you did watch the movie which is another manga adaption...wanna know more about it? wiki it

don't be surprised hearing RHCP's "Dani California" in the trailer and theme song, they approved the use of their song

the best part will be the cute misa..oh man she's hot

the actress

think of her with a face like this

wearing hot gothic lolita clothings...like this

and yes i am an otaku BUT and i mean BUT a cool otaku

The Gohfather

2006-05-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

in its neverending quest to make films that will sell in Hollywood, the Singapore Film Delusion, sorry, sorry, Commission has commissioned a local remake/adaptation of Francis Ford Coppola’s epic ‘The Godfather’, about a powerful family who is unafraid to exert its influence in order to further its business.

TalkingCock.com is proud to bring you an exclusive preview of its screenplay:

THE GOHFATHER (2006)

FADE FROM BLACK:

INT. DON GOHLEONE’S HOME OFFICE. Day

POH TONG PAH SAY
(seated in front of the Don's desk, facing the camera)
I believe in Singapore. Singapore has made my fortune. And I raised my daughter in the
Singapore fashion. She was a real Singapore girl. I gave her freedom, but -- I taught her never to dishonor her family. She found a boyfriend; not from the Party. She went to the movies with him; she stayed out late. I didn't protest. Two months ago, he took her for a drive, with another boyfriend, also not from the Party. They fed her all kinds of stuff. Made her drunk. And then they tried to take advantage of her. She resisted at first. But then… When I went to visit her, there were no covered walkways to the bus stop. The lifts… they didn’t stop at every floor. I wept. Why did I weep? She was the light of my life -- beautiful girl. But because she fell in with these… these… Her flat will never be beautiful. She will never be able to turn as good a profit when she re-sells.
[Poh breaks down. The Don gestures to Sonny to give Poh a bottle of Newater]
Sorry...
[Poh, taking the drink, sips from the bottle]
I thought she would come to her senses. But she’s stuck with the bastard for so many years now. And that bastard – he smiles at me. So I said to my wife, “For upgrading, we must go to Don Gohleone.”

DON GOHLEONE
(sitting behind his desk, petting a cat)
Why didn't you come to me earlier?

POH TONG PAH SAY
I thought… I thought the system would work. That people should be allowed to do what they wish. That they could go on without upgrading…

DON GOHLEONE
We've known each other for 25 years, but you come to me only now? I can't remember the last time that you invited me to your house for a cup of kopi, even though my wife used to supply peanuts to your boh tua boh suay daughter. But let's be frank here: you never wanted my leadership. You were afraid.

POH TONG PAH SAY
I thought it would be okay.

DON GOHLEONE
I understand. You found paradise in Singapore, had a good trade, made a good living. The police protected you; and there were courts of law. And you didn't need a friend of me. But now you come to me and you say -- "Don Gohleone, give me upgrading." -- But you don't ask with respect. You don't offer friendship. You don't even think to call me Gohfather. Instead, you come into my house when the real estate market is hot, and you are buay song that your estate has chickens wandering the streets, like some kampong, and can’t fetch as good a price as your old buddy’s son in Ang Mo Kio .

POH TONG PAH SAY
What must I do, Don Gohleone?

DON GOHLEONE
(stands, turning his back toward POH TONG PAH SAY)
Poh Tong Pah Say, Poh Tong Pah Say... What have I ever done to make you treat me so disrespectfully? Had you accepted my friendship, then your daughter would be able to take the MRT to the nearby shopping centre and watch movies, instead of having her friends laugh at her for first having to take the bus to the MRT. And when you and your wife visit her in her flat, you can just step off at her floor instead of going up two floors and walking down, what with your problems with gout.

POH TONG PAH SAY
Be my friend --
(then, after bowing and the Don shrugs)
-- Gohfather?

DON GOHLEONE
(after POH TONG PAH SAY kisses his hand)
Good.
(then, handing him an envelope marked ‘Progress Package’)
Some day, and that day will be coming as soon as there is some good economic news, I'll call upon you to do a service for me. But until that day -- accept this little progress package as a gift which some people might construe as a bribe but which I will vigorously deny and sue them for defaming me by suggesting it.

POH TONG PAH SAY
(as he leaves the room)
Kam sia, Gohfather.

DON GOHLEONE
Speak Mandarin.
(then, to his consigliere, after Poh leaves the room)
Ah, give this to the Bhai to handle. I want reliable people; people that aren't gonna be carried away. I mean, we're not gangsters, despite what this peasant, I mean, paisan, says.

-- end excerpt

taken from talkingcock.com

untitled

2006-04-29T09:52:00.000+08:00

been tired for the past few days and weeks and even though i get to sleep i still suffer a bout of insomnia, and it looks like the problems are back and depression is setting in again...and to think i never had a chance to go to the gym again after hearing others saying that they are going to the gym with sarcasim makes me look pathetic...you know what? fuck this...i don't care if you go to the gym as long as i am fit enough to run and do mother fucking standard pull ups and push ups...don't know why i wrote this cause this coming may i am gonna go and hit the gym once more... ALONE! FUCKERS YOU HEAR THAT ALONE! don't expect to see me though cause i ain't going there. cause it sucks there...cause when your good friends goes to the gym, they ain't telling you...

what should i do? do i have to see the psychiatrist? 2 words to choke upon, FUCK IT

crazy?

2006-04-17T10:57:00.000+08:00

yeah i am crazy...

here's a even more crazy video

watch out for the kurt cobain and david bowie parody... and not freddie merc because of mistaken identity

not for the sane people

and yes don't forget....

MY NAME IS GORGE

Chalet? oh THAT FUCKING TIME [WARNING EXPLICIT CONTENT]

2006-04-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

due to the explicit content on this post, i warn you in advance that whatever written here is sure to offend some people(friends only) hopefully with expressing my anger i won't get caught by the police or whatever shit...

alright then, i am pretty much sobered up and it took fucking 2 days for that to happen..and yes i'll start bashing now can't barely store all the anger...

why does god create friends for? have anyone ask you this question? well for a christian the answer's simple, but for others it maybe a logical answer without the religious tones..

my answer is simply like this, friends are people who are not your family members and neither are related in blood, but are people who generally have the same age mindset as well as understanding one and other because of the same events we experience together, be it happiness, anger or sadness, friends are always there to help.

well thats what i feel it should be but for christians we think they are too holy and basically doesn't wanna mix with non-christians, why? i don't know. Even though i used to be a christian i can tell what the difference is, when i WAS a christian, other christians tend to talk to me more and we get to have more fun and thats the advantage, now the disadvantage is that one must be specificly religous enough to actually get along with them...

what i basically wanna say is that the christian friends i have are FUCKED-UP...why can't they just have fun? beer? a sin? then why did jesus drank wine? yeah i know we shouldn't drink until drunk but what i did when i was drunk was trash talking, and i did not rape any girl nor rob no bank. that is ok on few occasions, i even ask my friends to help me if i am so fucked-up...dudes, i ain't a alchoholic, i don't need alchohol to be happy, all i want is everyone of my friends enjoy with me and have fun
and you don't need to drink to have fun, for me i drink cause i wanna go into the party mode, but in this case the christians look at me as SHIT and TRASH...but what can i do? they need to be holy to go heaven. and i repeat, I DON'T DRINK ALL THE TIME!

well theres one thing i know that christians tend to understand each other better than non-christians because of religious relations and experience and the list goes on, but what a christian doesn't understand is that non-christians need understanding too. a christian sheds a tear for another christian because of one small thing, for me? i won't even cry for no one unless they are leaving me here in this fucked-up world merely because i am so used to sadness since i was young, does any of my friend remembered that i have a broken family? OH NO THEY DON'T, i don't even wanna tell anyone about it because its personal problems and i suffered alot through childhood as well,is that touching enough? no? CAUSE I AM NOT A FUCKING CHRISTIAN RIGHT?

i dislocated my leg the second time and the doctor told me i won't have a proper chance of playing soccer again, in fact i have to go for a surgery in order to carry on playing my fave past time..i was feeling real low and down because i really am getting into soccer alot, something that gives me a ray of light and something that makes me feel wanted, i could feel it may be a gift from God...touching enough? but does anyone cares if i can play again? well the christians don't even care! they have their own problems too

anyways everyone has their own sob stories, i as a friend am glad to listen to them but for those holier than thou peeps should learn to help non-christians...oh by the way, nobody really listens to my sob stories cause they think its to hard to believe, well fine i understand.

what's more dissapointing is that my best friend being a christian has basically ditched me for another christian friend, because i am not a christian anymore, i believe he became my friend in secondary when i was a cute christian...oh well people change..i will still be his friend no matter what, because i believe he is God's gift to me(being the only christian friend that time) and hopefully he treats me better and not just be proud and at least be equal to me...touching? maybe not...

have they helped during the chalet? no i don't think so...but i don't blame them cause they are my friends, anyways i thank gy for the organising and trouble buying the food, blackie for his marinating even though it sucks,xl for being my drinking buddy, terence for cooking the food for us <---lots of props to him thanks brother, and jeremy for his funny antics as well as jonathan for joining us in crazy fun, and to be honest i was really happy we are all together even though its been 5 years and i really don't wanna see all my brothers break up because of differences and i hope anybody reading this understands....all in all you are all my friends no matter what, even if i am angry of you i will still treat you as a friend....still not touching? its true you know...

last but not least, people tend to relate me as emo, let me explain why i ain't emo

1.before emo boom started i was already in that mood(during secondary school years being sad most of the time)
2.i am just ANGRY not sad or happy or a mix of shit
3.emo kids are sissies and they cry over one stupid shit
4.emo kids are gays, they like kissing and hugging people and even have anal!
5.i paint black nails posing to be metal head not fucking emo kid
6.i keep long hair because of metal

they are lots of other reasons why i ain't emo i just have no fucking time to bother explaining shit when its obvious i ain't one...

if you read this far, you have at least understand me at a percentage of 30%

AND REMEMBER I AM JUST A REALLY ANGRY PERSON TRYING TO LET IT ALL OUT IN THE SAFEST WAY! INSTEAD OF KILLING SOMEONE OR HURTING MYSELF!

Joga Bonito!

2006-04-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

well...today and yesterday has to be the happiest day in my life. why? i was able to curl my balls again(no pun intended)with my left leg. As you know i was involved in another freak dislocation that rendered me helpless...doctors even adviced me to stop soccer or even go for surgery. Yesterday itself was hard, after finishing the phase test early, my teacher straight away knew that i was going to play soccer, maybe cause i was wearing yellow. He told me that i shouldn't play soccer and should wait till i am fully recovered...being a street soccer freak, i can't control that addiction in scoring goals, in fact i love that feeling of adrenaline rush and the fun of playing with a team full of wonderful players and i have never felt so wanted in a team before unlike secondary school...i was able to fully unleash my full potential here in ITE, i thank my friends for the care and support...this space is dedicated to you my fellow classmates cum soccer mates cum besto friends. Anyways my teacher even asked my friends not to play with me soccer..and guess what? they just say, "never mind lah gorge can take it lah, just play!" and i was left to decide whether to watch or to play...and in the end with my i-don't-give-a-fuck attitude i just went on to play...man it was something i did not regret later...having able to curl a ball with my leg leg to the goal post from the opposite keeper's side, it felt great even though i didn't really score...i supported my friends most of the time because i fear for dislocation again, its better to play safe. Whats most satifiying was the curls i did today during practice...man it was awesome..i curl most of my shots and my friend was like...KAKA IS BACK! haha great fun! and i managed to play a full match with the juniors even though i did not run as much as that before the dislocation...anyways i have to thank the nike joga bonito videos that inspired me to continue with my passion..

in fact i'll post 2 videos that inspired me the most

remember to play joga bonito style! joga bonito=beautiful game in portuguese

Study Says Praying Can Make You Worse Off

2006-04-02T10:44:00.000+08:00

some food for thought...go figure

Who would have ever thought that praying could make you worse off than you were in the first place? Well, someone did, because science, in its ongoing quest to debunk false ideas, has proven it.

According to a decade long study on patients that underwent heart surgery to be published in the American Heart Journal next week, Doctors concluded that those who had strangers praying for them, but were unaware of the fact, were no better off than those who didn’t. Not only that, but the $2.4 million study goes on to say that those who knew they had strangers praying for them often had a noticeably higher rate of complications.

The study showed that 52% of patients overall experienced complications in their surgery. That rate jumped up to 59% when the patients knew that they were being prayed for. The report gives no explanation for this difference, other than the patients might have been somehow mentally affected by the knowledge of the prayers.

"Did the patients think, ’I am so sick that they had to call in the prayer team?"’ said Dr Charles Bethea, one of the co-authors and a cardiologist at the Integris Baptist Medical Center in Oklahoma City.

However, Paul Kurtz, Professor Emeritus of Philosophy at the State University of New York at Buffalo, and chairman of the Committee for the Scientific Investigation of Claims of the Paranormal, was quoted as stating the reason the study found no unseen healing power in prayer was simply "Because there is none."

Even though we have wasted all this money disproving another one of religions ridiculous ideas, we can bet it will change no minds. It doesn’t matter what you prove to some people, they will still follow their churches with all the blind passion of a flock of lame sheep. Even when faced with evidence that their actions may actually be hurting more than helping, such has been shown many times in the past, they will not stop.

Remember this article the next time someone at your local church or hospital tells you “I’ll pray for you.” It may be more of a threat than an offering.

Source: Google News

remember animaniacs and the pinky and the brain?

2006-03-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

i was watching animaniacs when i came across one of the funniest parody on pinky and the brain and decided to post it here...enjoy!

i do hope some of you remember the cartoons...i mean they bring back childhood memories...

ren and stimpy classic cartoons that even simpsons can't beat

2006-03-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

whats the first thing that comes to mind when you see ren and stimpy? sick? twisted? crazy cartoon you say? well not for me..for i felt that this was the best cute, funny classic cartoon ever.. well i have a vid here so those people who can't take crazy sick stuff...i've warned you...but it ain't that sick...trust me or should you?

what do you think? tagboard's on the right..tag away...

remember i will teach your grandmother to suck eggs

last thing,i see if i can post something about myspace that might anger people tomorrow after my physio, so keep an eye out for the next post

from your HAPPY-HAPPY-JOY-JOY-Friend
Gorge

my new perception..

2006-03-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

as you can see i've changed the layout cause i heard from alot of people that the navigator is too troublesome as well as unaccessible so i decided to change to a simple html instead of the current css(all my tweaking wasted :( at least i've learnt something)
well since i'm at it i'll post a video and a flash...
been rather busy lately with my projects and the holidays are nearing so can't wait to jam once again...

till-i-am-bloody-free-v2-again
GORGE

Backwards Songs With SATANIC PHRASES? THE BEATLES TOO?

2006-03-19T02:25:00.000+08:00

obviously i don't believe in satanic phrases in some songs but for your info(a perfect excuse to use the flash catcher program) i'll post a cool flash....

ENJOY!
until-i-am-bloody-free-to-blog-again

GORGE

My darkest hours....indeed

2006-03-09T09:48:00.000+08:00

having felt total isolation alone at home as well as loneliness, i now know what life is... and that is the people here on earth don't deserve to live...i'll kill them all...for those who wanna die but don't wanna kill themselves, i am their answer to all their problems...find me and contact me i'll be glad to try my new methods on your rotting body....yeap that is if i wanna kill you SOBs

anyways on to teh topic..
after today i should be able to remove the slab on my knee and start walking like a baby, and thus am looking foward to this sat for some fun..common join me! not only that monday is my army medical examination and i know i have to stay that fucking place for 4 hours straight...best of all i lost my health booklet...well what to do? life fucking goes on.

as you can see gorge here has been listening to metalcore from more inspiration and i hope the other members of his band has done their homework....cause the gorge you trust and know has changed and it will shock the shito out of your assholo when he starts having his own paddings(please not bra paddings) to practice on....geremi you gotta fucking help me

and this ends a tragic post...

from your lonely-anti-social-fucked-up-friend
GORGE

Dislocation Composition

2006-03-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

well since i have nothing to do...might as well blog...

the unluckiness of gorge has once again take its toll on this very day, the old injury came back with a bang or in case "crackle snappy"...

i've once again dislocated my left patella and it is more loose compared to the first time, whats more scary is the way i dislocate it...during a street soccer game, i was running real fast and i was about to shoot when i just stop and twisted my body and guess what? i heard a loud crack and i was on the floor....and the pain was rather how do i say it...nothing...in fact i don't feel any pain only that when the paramedics came and lifted me up i felt the sharp bone poking my skin...yes my friends, READ "bone poking skin", try feeling it...not only that, my friend kicked my leg and well i did shouted in agony...my teacher asked him to stop and yeah that was funny...girls saw me half-naked lying on the floor like some pathetic weakling...but i wasn't screaming in pain which is a consolation...

anyways, the chances of me playing soccer will be low from what i heard from the paramedics and even the chances of going to combat training will be low....they gave me an example of doing standing board jump, if i landed badly, my leg will just snap like a bloody stick thrown into a wall...guess this was fated, in fact i believe this is what you call wear and tear effect on the body.. ever since sec, i've injured most times on the left knee so i wasn't that surprised....weird thing is that my leg is damn muscular but my bones dislocate real easy....looks like going to gym ain't that effective.... lesson learned, never force yourself over the limits...even for a stong tolerant, physically fit fella like me could be broken down like nothing....and that was what the nurse told me, he said many people have different levels of tolerance and mine just happen to be on my knees..not only that, he said some people he knew dislocated alot of times when they were young and as they get older it becomes more frightening...example:the shoulder has been dislocated for many times and just opening the door will dislocate again....but one good thing though is, some people having dislocated their arms or legs when young will never dislocate as they get older which is kinda cool...and i hope that i am one of those people....

ok thats all i wanna type...if any of you even bother to care you can always call me and chat with me to keep my company at home.....no school for a week...
here's a cool link of the bone which i dislocated PATELLA

more info.....

highlight to read-->Patellar injury and dislocation are more prevalent in individuals who participate in certain sports and activities. Anterior knee pain is the most common initial presentation. In order of descending prevalence, soccer players, weight lifters, runners, and shooters regularly complain of acute knee pain. In addition, studies show soccer players and weight lifters have the most potential for long-term knee pain. One study reported 52% of 31 soccer players, 31% of 29 weightlifters, 21% of 28 long-distance runners, and 17% of 29 shooters reported knee pain at least once per month. Swimming also places the athlete at risk for knee pain. On the other hand, sports such as tennis are not associated with knee pain. In summary, factors that cause knee pain include the type, amount, and duration of sports activity.

Patellofemoral dysfunction is the most probable etiology of knee pain. Whether related to sports or not, 1 out of every 4 painful knees has been reported to be the result of patellofemoral dysfunction. To fully understand the nature of patellar injury and dislocation, review baseline properties by examining the causes of knee pain in people who perform different athletic activities.

your evil-demented-psychotic-eccentric-crazy-mad-comical friend
GORGE

Bullet For My Valentine - All The Things I Hate (Revolves Around Me)

2006-02-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

this song is going out to those couples out there and with all due respect, i hope your boyfriends will end up like the video's outcome...death from car crash(body parts flying everywhere the head smiling and laughing, guts fly, i'll attached a sample of a mutilated body,view it at your own risk comic version by the way), and "yes i love you sooooo much!" and soon the death rates for road accidents will increase after this video mostly because of idiots who drive like idiots and their girlfriends screaming like some freaking weirdo....yes i have a weird and creative imagination i thank God for that! and that is why i am the most comical joker in my class! SWEEET!.Singaporean dane cook wannabe right here in this very blog if anybody actually reads it...

THAT WOMAN'S HOOOOOOOOOT!!!

gory pics here----->http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v329/nucleariori/Gantz_v01c01p030-31.jpg
and here----->http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v329/nucleariori/gantzgory2.jpg

i wonder if you still can actually think and feel the pain while your head flies...how cute...

something that cheered me..

2006-02-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

this strip of comic really cracks me up and damn its so funny
LAUGH WITH ME HOLY ONES

one sentence...

2006-02-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

Fuck the results of the Os... and congrats to the arrogant christian bastards out there.....once their know they are better then others, they start to mock and make it sound like they are so fucking intelligent...blah blah and they thank God and try to be the "GOOD" guy with all the nice conforting comments....comments like: at least you tried, you did your best...well guess what? i did not fucking study at all...assholes.....friends? more like bullshit...

why christians hate me...

2006-02-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

from what i've observed, christians hate me because of what i do and think and say....well, like all people, i believe in free speach and freedom to listen to metal music.. i mean, whats wrong with being interested about the sins of life? remember the saying? know your enermies and you have won half the battle(i may get the whole thing wrong but you get the drift)....and metal music? who cares about lyrics? even so whats wrong with listening to christian metal? lyrics you say? ok then find out about the song "watch me die" from underoath and tell me what it is....yes and then you christians out there will go, don't believe george blah blah blah no sure thing as christian metal blah blah blah....title has the word die blah blah blah....well you are wrong, as far as i know, christian songs need not be just gay pop and soft pussy rock....as long as you are glorifying GOD and praising him...who cares what the music sounds like? and it caters to non-christians who like metal music... if christians out there judge me because of this....well i am starting to think they ain't christians, because they are people who think they are HOLY...well if i happen to misunderstand anybody who is reading this.... i am sorry....cause christians FORGIVE UNDERSTAND?

what people think when you say:"nobody cares about me" the shocking truth revealed...

2006-02-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

an experiment i have done for many years has finally bear fruits and i am proud to present to you what i have gathered.... and for all due seriousness...no offence is made here but more of a research, i could be wrong...

1.C*****ians:"WE" care about you and "GOD" cares about you

what they are thinking:"ha another sucker to bring to church,easy way to heaven here i come!"

2.B****ists:"Don't worry about it man...live life to the fullest and yes of course we do care about you"

what they are thinking:"pathetic...who gives a **** how he thinks....**** the living **** out of him"

3.F*****inkers:"hey man don't say that...we care about you...share your problems with us"

what they are thinking:"come join us....forget about God and live a sinful life like ours HAHAHAHA!"

well thats all i got....till next time...gorge will shock more....

the demissal of emo-kids...

2006-01-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

As you can see...thanks to MTV and their constant playing of emo-shit songs(ok i am not complaining, it beats seeing boy bands and pop-fucks playing over and over again) i respect their songs and in fact i listen to them too...only those fucked up emo-kids everywhere think they are so fucking cool....not being offensive...i know of people who are posers namely me! but i ain't emo-kiddie...i am metalfuckingcoretotheearthofhellwhereweallburnanddieandsuffer
andgoddoesnotgiveadamnaboutandneitherhecansayorhelpcauseofallthesinswedoneonearththanks
tosatanandhisttemptations...

wow thats long..take your time to read it...

anyways on to the topic....i feel that there is way too much emo-kids....i prefer metalcore by the way cause they ain't mainstream and not many people know about it, therefore i ain't a poser...i took time and effort to find those fucking kick arse metalcore bands when those emo-kids watch MTV or listen to the fucking propagandic radio....metal is the next thing and i don't wanna see metalcore posers if that happens...and i hope they don't sellout...i pray man...metalcore is my life...especially christian ones...if they sellout, fucking hell i am ditching the genre....

vulgar is bad you know....gorge is so bad and naughty....bad boy bad bad boy...

well i am starting to feel the dismissal of emo around the time when gorge listens to more cooler metal, and emo-kiddies turn to metalcore...man they sure are slow fuckturds....this is when i really need psychological help....

man need help!....god if you are there help me! i am ****ing losing it!(can't say that word,unholy)
if you christians are reading this, hate me! i don't give a flying fuck....i am bbbbbbbaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkksllllllllliiiiiiiiiiddddddddiiiiinnnnnnnngggggggg!

pool game video....

2006-01-18T12:18:00.000+08:00

a pool game video of me and gy.....how well did we play?
surprise ending and you get to see the cool power of gorge's darkness(when the lights go off at the city tonight)

enter comments noobs!